Cappuccino Bitte!

I really enjoy taking the train. Even taking 1h30 to get to work I prefer taking the non-car way to work. I wake up at 06:45 and hop on the Stadtbahn right next to my door at 07:26, this is where my mind starts flowing and when my brain finishes booting. Here I start checking my agenda, organize my tasks and dream about the future while I passively observe The Others.
These people I observe are my reality and the future to come, I will soon be one of them. They wake up really early and look fresh as a sunrise at the beach. The kids all pimped up for school and the grown ups all dressed up for work. I am surrounded and there is nowhere to hide.
I live Lost In Translation daily, I speak a couple of words before 09:45, I hide inside my long black coat and beneath my black classic hat.
I just love it. I get to the main train station at 07:45 after taking the second Stadtbahn and carefully rehearse my Deutsche in my head over and over again.
At 08:32 my steady pace takes me to work on a 15 minute cold walk through an ugly city, the city of Gold has for me a different meaning.
My daily journeys take me across lots of people and places, most of them inside my head where everything is orderly and nothing is complicated, all is peaceful and beautiful… most of times.
And in the next day the same, Cappuccino, Bitte!!

Something New

As we finally got the new appartment things started to change. Slowly, I should say, I started to feel better and although some problems are still very much present there is this slow current of happiness and stillness flowing in my thoughts and settling in.
Still there is this rather big issue with the job and we haven’t finished moving all our stuff but I feel so good at some particular moments that I think everything will be just fine!
Besides all the paperwork still to take care I can’t avoid worrying about having money to pay the rent… What if something goes wrong and I loose my job? What if I just can’t take it anymore and quit?
As everyone knows it is so hard to build something but so easy and quick to ruin it all… I know… I worry too much, I can’t control it, I should, I must, I will.
So today was my first ride with the train to work, I am still learning all the details, the lines, timetables and prices but there’s only one first day and it’s almost done.
If I wished for some change in my life a few years ago, I got it! I have something new EVERY DAY! (and usually in German )

Signing out from somewhere in between Pforzheim and Stuttgart here I go try to find my way back home..