Yes, you are probably asking: “What’s with the Karma thing?”
The philosophical explanation of karma can differ slightly between traditions, but the general concept is basically the same. Through the law of karma, the effects of all deeds actively create past, present, and future experiences, thus making one responsible for one’s own life, and the pain and joy it brings to him/her and others.
Feeling disappointed.
Well, not that I was not a good person before, as a matter of fact I was a really good person up until my approaching my 20′s, but along the way I lost my self confidence, my purity and willing to do but good. I lost my way and was lost for a really long time, I did not commit any crimes or the likes but I wasn’t that old trustworthy, caring, confident and most of all, simple me.
I was a different person then.
I am a different person now.
As always a big change is also an opportunity to start all over again, and reality is just like in the movies, you can turn your life around at any second that goes by. I took a big chance (described in my last posting) and took the opportunity to start fresh, refactor myself and recover my old peace of mind.
First of all I started giving less importance to physical property, not that I completely stopped being materialist but started on a better path and immediately felt better.
Second I started believing there was something better for me out there, so I took a chance, prepared my way and went for it. It was not easy at all and was all part of the change but in the end it was the right move, the only move. No regrets so far.
Third I started to cool down and be more like the old self, to stress too much, being kind to others and take every opportunity be good to someone else.
What I can say is that I am currently living the best days of my life, although nothing is perfect and I am still a long (then again, maybe not so long) way to having reached all my goals all is going good. There are some problems still to solve, a lot of obstacles were already overcome but in the end… well in the end we’ll see, but for now I am already happy, my friends and family see me as a better person (I really hope so), I have a small family of my own and live in the prettiest country I have ever seen.
